Growing Pains

Bittersweet describes chocolate, but it also describes growing up pretty well. I mean, there is so much that I'm enjoying and so much I'm looking forward to, in life. But there is a huge part of me that sometimes deeply desires and longs for the care-free, oblivious, wonderful childhood that I knew. And I am well aware of the fact that I had an unusually sweet growing up, but that only makes leaving it harder.

Sometimes, I feel so ready to conquer the world; so ready to begin my, the life that God has called me to, but at other times I feel so small, so little, so insignificant. and then there are times of just feeling plain overwhelmed. So growing up consists of alot more than just some leg pain, it's my life changing, and Abba is teaching me to bend to His will and His plans for me. (but that doesn't always change the fact that I can't see where this is going.)

I'm amazed at the speed at which the human heart can switch emotions though. It's truly amazing ;)

I've been reading Psalms and Proverbs before bed, and I am truly enjoying it. I feel like it doesn't matter how many times I read Psalms, they always speak to me in different ways. My thoughts are with my dear friend, Emily, who is following the call God has placed on her life, and is in her 2nd to final stage of a 6 month DTS. I miss her alot! but I am so very, very proud to have her inspire me! Know where she's been and come from, and knowing the amazing plans God has for her life, makes it bearable to be separated from her for this long.

And my heart is learning to wait. Restlessly, sometimes, but it's learning. I suppose it doesn't have much of a choice, for Abba is teaching me this lesson of actively waiting, but it doesn't mean that my heart catches on right away....:P

So for now, there hasn't been too much to write about, just the little things in my life that are shaping me and transforming me into someone, into something, that is beautiful. Something that is complete. Something that is exactly what Abba wants it to be! And I will hold on to that hope!