Recently i was walking in a rainstorm, it was absolutely beautiful! There's just something about walking in the rain; it's almost like you're dancing to the melody of a thousand tears--sometimes the pour forth because of great joy, and other times they flood the earth because of pain, anger or total sadness. This time, it was raining joy, love, peace...yes, mostly peace. It's in the rain that i feel so close to Abba. Not many cars are on the road, not many people are out walking. There's no hustle and bustle that usually occurs in a town. It's still. And i take off my shoes and walk in the middle of the street, on the yellow lines, lift my arms and spin. And let go of the worries, of the pain, of the frustration that comes from being alive. I let it go, if only for a short time, to dance, to be alive, to be free, to let my heart be romanced. Rain is a love letter to my heart. It holds a place that speaks into my very being. I don't know why, it just does. It's one of the things that make me feel so alive. As i was walking, I realized that it's my dream to someday share my rain walks with somebody else. And someday, that will come. Someday, someday, someday...And what a wonderful story it will be. But it would be so silly for me to sit in the window and watch the rain, just waiting for someone to come and walk with me. That's not me! I'm gonna go and enjoy, to the fullest, and walk in the rain with my Jesus. for now.
The day that we stop realizing and enjoying the little things, is the day we start to die-a little inside. Oh, it can wake up again, but i am determined that going to college, working, running, whatever it is i'm doing, cannot consume me to the point that i start to die...I've only just begun to live, why would i want to die again? What is it that makes your spirit sing? even if it's just taking 2 minutes to watch a tree sway in the wind, or sipping a cup of coffee outside, or laughing. whatever it is, do it. live life. this isn't home, the things that romance our hearts are just a shadow of Home, but what a wonderful taste; what a wonderful reminder of what is to come. and what a blessing to know that our hearts are being romanced by the Creator so that life, however temporary, is so full of love, of joy, of hope.
Remain Strong.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Thunderstorms, Epic Music and Springtime
Wow. I totally, and truly, love springtime! The vivid colors, the thunderstorms, the smell of wet earth, the sound of birds singing again, does it get any better???
I really think the reason I love spring so much is 'cuz it follows winter. It's the proof of the hope that I've clung to on the coldest, darkest days in January; and it parallels the walk of a christian--it's like proof that the light will come, that something better is gonna come. :)
I was officially accepted into Millersville University for the Fall 2010 semester. Majoring in music, focus in Voice Performance. It's amazing to me how quickly it happened (3 weeks, applied, accepted, auditioned and accepted into the music college) and i'm PUMPED!! I've been getting alot of questions like, "well what do you plan to do with that degree??" guess what? i don't know. private lessons? performing? i don't know. What i do know is that, if God wants this to be my next step, who am i to say no? I know he'll provide (and he knows that he's gotta come thru). But just in taking that step. daring to believe in myself enough. listening to the call, and follow thru, I've won victory. I charged into a realm that before I decided I wasn't good enough to go into. But now, now i know, I'm a child of the light. I carry that with me. I walk with dignity, integrity, honor, poise. I am loved by my maker. I hold my head high, my shoulders back, tall, upright, and I carry myself as a princess, i carry myself with confidence. It wasn't about passing or failing the audition. It was about daring. daring to believe. daring to try. God wasn't asking me to judge myself on /they're/ ratings, it was about my heart. And i won. :)
There's still so much i'm learning, day to day, week to week, even minute by minute, but here's the thing, deep inside my heart, it's found joy. Joy that refuses to let go, even for a minute. Joy that remains even in the darkest night. And the top most part of my heart, the surface part that controls my face and emotions, that's found true joy too! In between, well, let's just say, that's the part I have to tell, "remain strong. remain strong. it's worth the pain." Clinging to hope, fighting for truth, daring to believe.
I really think the reason I love spring so much is 'cuz it follows winter. It's the proof of the hope that I've clung to on the coldest, darkest days in January; and it parallels the walk of a christian--it's like proof that the light will come, that something better is gonna come. :)
I was officially accepted into Millersville University for the Fall 2010 semester. Majoring in music, focus in Voice Performance. It's amazing to me how quickly it happened (3 weeks, applied, accepted, auditioned and accepted into the music college) and i'm PUMPED!! I've been getting alot of questions like, "well what do you plan to do with that degree??" guess what? i don't know. private lessons? performing? i don't know. What i do know is that, if God wants this to be my next step, who am i to say no? I know he'll provide (and he knows that he's gotta come thru). But just in taking that step. daring to believe in myself enough. listening to the call, and follow thru, I've won victory. I charged into a realm that before I decided I wasn't good enough to go into. But now, now i know, I'm a child of the light. I carry that with me. I walk with dignity, integrity, honor, poise. I am loved by my maker. I hold my head high, my shoulders back, tall, upright, and I carry myself as a princess, i carry myself with confidence. It wasn't about passing or failing the audition. It was about daring. daring to believe. daring to try. God wasn't asking me to judge myself on /they're/ ratings, it was about my heart. And i won. :)
There's still so much i'm learning, day to day, week to week, even minute by minute, but here's the thing, deep inside my heart, it's found joy. Joy that refuses to let go, even for a minute. Joy that remains even in the darkest night. And the top most part of my heart, the surface part that controls my face and emotions, that's found true joy too! In between, well, let's just say, that's the part I have to tell, "remain strong. remain strong. it's worth the pain." Clinging to hope, fighting for truth, daring to believe.
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