Thunderstorms, Epic Music and Springtime

Wow. I totally, and truly, love springtime! The vivid colors, the thunderstorms, the smell of wet earth, the sound of birds singing again, does it get any better???

I really think the reason I love spring so much is 'cuz it follows winter. It's the proof of the hope that I've clung to on the coldest, darkest days in January; and it parallels the walk of a christian--it's like proof that the light will come, that something better is gonna come. :)

I was officially accepted into Millersville University for the Fall 2010 semester. Majoring in music, focus in Voice Performance. It's amazing to me how quickly it happened (3 weeks, applied, accepted, auditioned and accepted into the music college) and i'm PUMPED!! I've been getting alot of questions like, "well what do you plan to do with that degree??" guess what? i don't know. private lessons? performing? i don't know. What i do know is that, if God wants this to be my next step, who am i to say no? I know he'll provide (and he knows that he's gotta come thru). But just in taking that step. daring to believe in myself enough. listening to the call, and follow thru, I've won victory. I charged into a realm that before I decided I wasn't good enough to go into. But now, now i know, I'm a child of the light. I carry that with me. I walk with dignity, integrity, honor, poise. I am loved by my maker. I hold my head high, my shoulders back, tall, upright, and I carry myself as a princess, i carry myself with confidence. It wasn't about passing or failing the audition. It was about daring. daring to believe. daring to try. God wasn't asking me to judge myself on /they're/ ratings, it was about my heart. And i won. :)

There's still so much i'm learning, day to day, week to week, even minute by minute, but here's the thing, deep inside my heart, it's found joy. Joy that refuses to let go, even for a minute. Joy that remains even in the darkest night. And the top most part of my heart, the surface part that controls my face and emotions, that's found true joy too! In between, well, let's just say, that's the part I have to tell, "remain strong. remain strong. it's worth the pain." Clinging to hope, fighting for truth, daring to believe.